MENY
We all have ups and downs in life.
Some time we feel like we are on top of the world and are so lucky for what we have. Other times it is hard to see the good things in life and even harder to get out of bed in the morning.
I have had problems with depression for a very long time, the doctors want to give me pills for it but I said no. I have months of being super happy and loving life and then a period where I hate everything and don’t want to leave my flat. If I took pills I would lose both of these moods and just walk around like a zombie, so I decided to accept myself as I am.
Sometimes I find it hard to see how bad my love periods are. But I have learnt to see the signs now when I live on my own. And I noticed them this morning.
I get angry when I get ready just cause the hair style I am trying to do doesn’t work
I get updates when I see myself in the mirror cause I don’t look the way I want
Dishes pile up in the sink
I haven’t done laundry for 2 weeks.
I am no psychiatrist, I am no doctor. But I can say one thing which has worked for me and that I know that people hate hearing.
Snap out of it.
And I don’t mean that in a heartless way, all I am saying is that the only person out there that can control your life is you.
When I get home today I am going to clean, I am going to do my laundry I am going to take a walk in the sun and go to bed no earlier than 10pm.
I know what my problems are so I know how to change them. Is it easy?! Hell no! But I feel good after I have forced myself to do these things cause it makes me feel strong. I know then how much I can survive and I will keep on surviving.
Keep your head high, remember that you are in control and that you are stronger than you think
~Until Next Time~
xox
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