Caroline Sofie Gavelfalt

Time to fly home, by the time you are reading this I will be on my way to the airport, or on the flight, or I might even be back in London and Back at work, who knows. 
Flat is cleaned, everything is washed and folded, and everything is locked, it has been great but my skin will be happy to get back to, not so warm London :)

 

So I had some goals with this trip:

 

Lose weight 
start training again
Not Drink
Not Smoke
And the most important one, sort my problem our. 

 

How did I do?

I have gained weight, 

Trained for about 2 days then gave up, (however I am gonna sign up to the gym when I come back, which is a start at least)
I've had a Bcardi Breezer by myself while eating pizza, but that was the only drink during the whole trip
One good thing! I haven't smoked since I was at premier inn, crying outside having my last cigaret after I missed my plane. 

 

But best of all, I did solve my problem, 

 

My big problem was and still is(but now just a small one) that I didn't know how to be alone. It's wierd really, I would be with boyfriends even though I wasn't in love with them cause that mad more sence to me than being alone, I would ask a girl if she would give me another chanse at a date even though she scared the crap out of me. But worst thing was, I hate my fiiends when they wouldn't be there for me as much I was there for them, but then when they were there for me I would push them away. I would go out with anyone that I knew was easy to get just to have them home for a night so I wan't alone

 

Now during this holiday, Yes I have been texting people, I have called my mum several times, but I haven't done something unhealthy. I have spent every night by myself and I am so happy about it. I have been able to miss people. Which doesn't happen often for me. 

 

Just one more step I need to take and that is getting the balls in doing the things I wanna do even though I can't find anyone to do it with. may it be going to the movies, going to a new resturant or  going to another city, I know now that I can do this by myself. 

 

I have learnt that even though friends and family are amazing, at the end of the day, the most important person to be around and keep happy, is yourself!